As I sit here at this coffee shop this morning contemplating what to write - because I must write - this is the phrase that keeps recurring in my mind. I feel that lately I have been a
First and foremost is my family. Always my family. There have been soccer games, volleyball team tryouts, riding lessons, piano lessons, early release days from school, dentist appointments, and shopping for fall clothes. Of course, there is the constant routine of school mornings, packing lunches, carpool lines, and homework. This, too . . . .
We did enjoy a lovely afternoon at a local corn maze last weekend, though.
I also have my job. It's part time, but I am discovering that no job is truly part time. Even when I am not "on the clock," my phone is chiming with email alerts and thoughts of my work related to-do list weigh on my mind.
I am still trying to go to the gym three times a week and still seeing practically no results. It is excessively frustrating and requiring an inordinate amount of my time, energy, and emotional/mental fortitude to stay committed this mantra:
Finally, there is this blog which I think is suffering the most. This is the third week in a row in which I have barely managed to crank out one post a week - my obligatory Tuesday Ten (which I love I do not begrudge at all). I came to this coffee shop this morning with one goal - WRITE SOMETHING! Yet, when I sat down and looked at my computer screen, I completely drew a blank for a good 15 minutes. Then, that phrase and these words began to flow in this far less than eloquent post.
Somehow, I'm doing it all but I don't feel that I'm doing any of it well. Each one - my family, my job, my body, my blog - gets only my partial attention and a rather half-assed effort. I am feverishly treading water just trying got to stay afloat. I end the days completely exhausted. It's barely mid October and I'm ready for the December holiday break!
For the rest of today and tomorrow, I'm hitting the reset button. I'm ignoring this blog and all things related to it. I'm ignoring anything work related. I'm going to the gym and giving it my all. Then, I'm surprising my girls with a movie this afternoon and relaxing tonight. Tomorrow I'm going to cheer at Megan's soccer game and laugh at a cookout with friends. I'm going to breathe deeply, take in the fall colors, and let all the balls I'm juggling drop to the ground.
I'm hitting the pause button and creating some white space in my life. (Thanks to my blog friends Tara and Robin for the inspiration!)
How about you? Do you need to hit RESET? Do you need to let the balls drop for a while? How to you juggle it all and, more importantly, how do you relax and reset?