First of all, we had a couple of somewhat unexpected snow/ice days. Monday, the kids were released from school 3 1/2 hours early. Then, they were out on Tuesday and are out again today. (As I type this, they are veggie out in front of the TV and I am praying the power holds out long enough for me to finish.) These days turned the schedule upside down and threw me off my game. (Not that I usually have "game," but I am a creature of habit and routine. When you mess with my schedule, you mess with my brain!)
Secondly, my hubby has been out of town all week for work which meant all this schedule juggling had to be done by me, myself, and I (with a little help from my wonderful in-laws!). As much as I do admit to enjoying some alone time occasionally when he's gone, five nights in a row is a lot.
Third, I started a new part time job about a month ago and I am still trying to adjust to the schedule. (Full time working moms everywhere - I don't low how you do it. Seriously.) Between the new job and teaching a creative writing club at my daughter's middle school once a week, I went from having 2-3 "free" days a week to being lucky if I get one.
Also, my two oldest daughters (ages 9 and 11) go through cycles of fighting with each other. This week they have been in a cycle of extreme fighting. They cannot be in the same proximity of each other without being at each other's throats. On top of that, my youngest who is only 6, has spent the week telling me that she thinks herself to be ugly and stupid. That right there will break a mama's heart into a million pieces instantaneously.
Finally, I usually like to write my blog posts a couple days ahead, but with the crazy schedule, I just didn't have time this week. I did, however, spend the week mulling over the topic for FTSF (or so I thought) and couldn't come up with anything for it. So, at 8:45 last night, when I finally got the kids to bed and sat down on the couch in the quiet for a minute, I gave up and posted this little note to the Facebook group.
Immediately, these lovely blogging friends of mine came back with supportive comments. Through their comments, though, I realized the topic I had been mulling over all week was the WRONG ONE!! I had next week's topic on my mind, but this week's topic is actually "What I really want to scream out loud is . . . . . . "
So, when I crawled into bed a little after 10:00 last night listening the sleet pellets rap against the window, praying that my hubby would be able to land and drive home safely, re-playing the events of the week, and with both FTSF topics swirling in my head, I had a bit of an epiphany.
What I really want to scream out loud is/was . . . .
(For the record, my hubby did make it home safely last night arriving shortly after midnight. This is a very good thing of many obvious reasons. Also, the power DID NOT hold out long enough for me to finish this post. Since he made it home, he was able to placate the children by starting the gas logs in the living room and I was able to connect t his mi-fi device for internet access so I could finish, publish, and link up this thing. I have a feeling I will be screaming this mantra all. day. long.)
This post is part of Finish The Sentence Friday. FTSF is hosted by some wonderful blogging ladies. Please give them a visit and check out all the other blogs that participate as well!
Janine at Janine’s Confessions of a Mommyaholic
Stephanie at Mommy, for Real
Kristi at Finding Ninee
This week's special guest host is Tarana of Sand In My Toes.