Currently . . . February 2016

 I have decided to try creating a "currently" post once a month in 2016. I think of it as a bit of a journal entry - an online diary, if you will. If you want to join me, you are welcome. I haven't made it a linkup or anything , but you can just copy the words I have used and fill in your own thoughts. You don't have to use all same the words I have used and/or you can substitute any others you choose! (Here is a great list.) 

Currently (5:00pm on Sunday, February 21, I am . . . .) 

• Enjoying - A few moments of quiet. I dropped my youngest off for an activity at our church (where I am also on staff part time). I had plans, but they were cancelled, so I am sitting in my office and there is no one around! 
• Feeling - Blah. I'm not sure if I have a case of the winter blues or what, but I'm just feeling kind of "meh" lately. Lots of life's little annoyances have gotten under my skin more than they should and I can't seem to shake the little gray cloud over my head.
• Reading - Before I Go To Sleep  by S.J. Watson. It was on my list of books to read in 2016. I've only read the first two chapters and I'm not fully "into it" yet, but it definitely has promise!
• Listening - The last song I downloaded was Hearbeat by Carrie Underwood. Her performance of it at the Grammys with Sam Hunt was amazing.

Wearing - Jeans and a sweatshirt which is a little much considering it is almost 70 degrees here in NC today, but it's still winter and I'm not ready for short sleeves year! Plus, it's will be back in the 40s by Tuesday.

Thinking - About blogging. A lot. In the last two weeks, I have posted one recipe. That's it. In the last few weeks, I've had the worst case of writer's block I've ever had. I want to write, but, mostly, I just sit and stare at a blank screen. I'm hoping that this week I can find some time to just sit and free write or maybe even re-invent some of my older posts. Fingers crossed for breaking the block.

Wishing- A lot of things; a lot of unspoken wishes.

Questioning - Why figuring out middle school and high school is like applying to college! Around here it is anyway. Last year, we made the difficult decision to move our two youngest daughters to a private school. (They are 3rd and 5th grade this year.) Now, we have to decide whether to leave our 5th grader there for middle school or send her to the same middle school our oldest has attended. Our oldest will be entering high school and has applied for a couple magnet programs. We are awaiting acceptance notifications (or not) and, then, will have to choose. It's insane! 

Eating - As little as possible! I'm kidding - kind of. Do you have a number you simply refuse to see on the scale? Or maybe I'm the only one who is that neurotic. Anyway, I have that number in my head and I saw it last week which means I have  gained a full 30 pounds in less than two years. I've joined a gym; I've had my thyroid tested twice; and I've had my hormone levels tested, too. Apparently I'm perfectly healthy - just fat. So, I'm officially on a diet. 

Worrying - About my kids and decisions. About myself and my blog. About taking my kids to the dentist on Monday afternoon. 

Wanting - To get out of this Blah rut I'm in. To make decisions confidently and move on. To write something amazing - or just something at all. To take a vacation. To laugh. To win the lottery. Or maybe to just go to bed (it's 9:00pm now).

Loving - My family. Sometimes, they are the source of my angst, but they are also the loves of my life and my whole heart. 

What's CURRENTLY happening in your life? What are you enjoying, thinking, and wishing? @TheGoldenSpoons #bloglife